VALUABLE and IM(I’M)PURe

VALUABLE  and IM(I’M)PURe…                

Amma and appa, I know you will now be crying in front of my photos J. I am not able to wipe away your tears. Everywhere, in every forms of media, people fight for me, gossip about me J some even curse me. Through this letter I am gonna reveal the unknown truth. Let me remove the knots of pain behind every rape victims, at least then let this planet value us.

Give me a call, when you reach your place, will be send off message probably by every parent to the girl. Who made the mistake? Does the attitude of girl, to pursue her dreams sounds wrong? Does the attitude of a girl, to remain flexible and competitive like guys sound sluggish? Did I make mistake, by deciding to uplift my family in society through my job

Appa, these words are for you J You always insisted me to be brave, learn self defense. I did notL . Asked me to run everyday morning, to gain stamina. You know what appa, when he chased me to get what he needed from me, I realized how weak I am, I realized my stamina level. Your favourite dress of mine  is torn daddy. I still realize the day, during my age of 5,when I fell from cycle, and it bleeded a little in my knee, you did not sleep for 1 week till the scar disappeared. And now appa, L I am hurt everywhere. ? Appa, you always said that you wished for a girl, during second delivery of amma, and I was born. And you never regretted for it. I know from now you are going to regret it for lifetime. I really want to live appa , I have lots of dreams. But in our society, virginity is considered to be precious and highly valuable, than a victim’s soul like mine. I really doubt, whether all of us would have lived happily in our place, If I survived. Why did I assume that every guy in this planet will be like my appa and anna. Why did I assume that every guy will be brought up with love, care and taught about value of girl like amma did. J

AMMA J

Amma this is for you J you insisted me, on every periods to sleep, to overcome the pain of bleeding. May be because of that, I am now going to sleep forever. It pained, It was hurt, it was torn L Along with his cigarette, my dreams, my virginity, my purity above all my soul was burnt.  Amma, you always told me it will be painful, but not this extent. I realized, why you always insisted me to wear shawls, wear long tops. Not to wear sleeveless, not to wear low necks, above all not to trust anyone. But I know it is too late. I did not leave this world, so easily and so soon. I struggled, crawled for water, suffered with stomach pain, and ashamed of reaching people with torn clothes.  You always teased for looking into mirror throughout the day, and now I will never be able to look into the mirror again, I am ashamed too. Amma , is it a curse to give birth to a girl childL

To all of you people, who discuss in forum, about the rapes, gossip about victims in media, question the family of victims after the incident. Instead, teach every guy to donate bloodJ May be he will understand the value of blood and value of soul.

To my family and society, instead of decorating my photos with flowers, and lighting lamp and crying or protesting or spreading awareness with it, instead hold pluck cards of guy because of whom I buried my dreams, because of whom my family became famous and hot topic for every morning newspaper. Change the law, change the punishment and save me. Let me be the last girl, let this be the last letter delivered.