VALUABLE and IM(I’M)PURe…
Amma and
appa, I know you will now be crying in front of my photos J. I am not able to wipe away your
tears. Everywhere, in every forms of media, people fight for me, gossip about
me J some even curse me. Through this
letter I am gonna reveal the unknown truth. Let me remove the knots of pain
behind every rape victims, at least then let this planet value us.
Give me a call, when you reach your
place, will be send
off message probably by every parent to the girl. Who made the mistake? Does
the attitude of girl, to pursue her dreams sounds wrong? Does the attitude of a
girl, to remain flexible and competitive like guys sound sluggish? Did I make
mistake, by deciding to uplift my family in society through my job
Appa, these
words are for you J You
always insisted me to be brave, learn self defense. I did notL . Asked me to run everyday morning,
to gain stamina. You know what appa, when he chased me to get what he needed
from me, I realized how weak I am, I realized my stamina level. Your favourite
dress of mine is torn daddy. I still
realize the day, during my age of 5,when I fell from cycle, and it bleeded a
little in my knee, you did not sleep for 1 week till the scar disappeared. And
now appa, L I am hurt everywhere. ? Appa, you always said that you wished
for a girl, during second delivery of amma, and I was born. And you never
regretted for it. I know from now you are going to regret it for lifetime. I
really want to live appa , I have lots of dreams. But in our society, virginity
is considered to be precious and highly valuable, than a victim’s soul like
mine. I really doubt, whether all of us would have lived happily in our place,
If I survived. Why did I assume that every guy in this planet will be like my
appa and anna. Why did I assume that every guy will be brought up with love,
care and taught about value of girl like amma did. J
AMMA J
Amma this is
for you J you insisted me, on every periods to
sleep, to overcome the pain of bleeding. May be because of that, I am now going
to sleep forever. It pained, It was hurt, it was torn L Along with his cigarette, my dreams,
my virginity, my purity above all my soul was burnt. Amma, you always told me it will be painful,
but not this extent. I realized, why you always insisted me to wear shawls,
wear long tops. Not to wear sleeveless, not to wear low necks, above all not to
trust anyone. But I know it is too late. I did not leave this world, so easily
and so soon. I struggled, crawled for water, suffered with stomach pain, and
ashamed of reaching people with torn clothes.
You always teased for looking into mirror throughout the day, and now I
will never be able to look into the mirror again, I am ashamed too. Amma , is
it a curse to give birth to a girl childL
To all of you
people, who discuss in forum, about the rapes, gossip about victims in media,
question the family of victims after the incident. Instead, teach every guy to donate
bloodJ May be he will understand the value
of blood and value of soul.
To my family
and society, instead of decorating my photos with flowers, and lighting lamp
and crying or protesting or spreading awareness with it, instead hold pluck
cards of guy because of whom I buried my dreams, because of whom my family
became famous and hot topic for every morning newspaper. Change the law, change
the punishment and save me. Let me be the last girl, let this be the last
letter delivered.
